What were you like (as a person) BEFORE steroids compared to now?

[TheChad]

That is an absolutely fantastic story man and I actually visioned your entire journey as I was reading.. good stuff man..

For myself the journey long before I even touched any weights. I was also a skinny kid and I was picked on and bullied because of my stutter and a nervous tic. I ended up having behavior problems because of all of my frustrations that were bottled down. I ended up in a school for kids that had behavior problems and for myself during that time was very scary.. I was literally watching the worst of the worst fist fight with each other every day.. long as they were fighting each other and leaving me alone that was all I needed.. then it came time that I was getting picked on, after watching everyone else fist fight all the time I knew I had to throw down, or I was going to be taken advantage of for a long time.. not knowing what I was doing I threw down and I remember the first altercation very well. I was very surprised with how easily I pumbled this supposed badass kid. I was more surprised than everyone else that was watching. Then came the next kid not too long after, and I walked right through him.. how could this be?
There was a couple more instances thereafter and I held my own pretty good. not only did I earn the respect for my peers but I also stuck up for all of the other kids that got picked on . I actually hung out with a lot of the kids that we would call nerds, they were my best friends and they were pretty awesome kids, no one mess with anybody in our little click because of me.
With this new sense of pride I wanted to push it further and I remember looking in a magazine and I seen a weight bench, and I don't know what it was but something in me just wanted it..
That Christmas my mother bought me a weight set that was used from one of her friends.. I can't describe to you that feeling I had when I first laid my eyes on it until this day nothing in life as compared to it besides my children..
My mother's friend also passed down boxes and boxes of bodybuilding magazines from her older son.. I've never seen anything like it.. with my weight bench and these magazines I would just disappear into the tool shed for hours on end every night.. I can still smell the kerosene heater to this day.. I wanted nothing more then to be a monster. But my life was just starting and I had a lot of mistakes to make, and one of them was steroids at the age of 19.. it was foolish, however it turned into the best thing I ever did. I used off and on throughout my twenties ultimately staying on permanently at the latter years of my twenties.. I'm 42 today and I've never came off and almost 15 years.. if you met me, you would never think I had a tic or a stutter as a child.. these aren't things that just go away but you learn how to adapt to them. But I tell people they kind of laugh and Snicker and they don't believe me.. ok , whatever like I'm making it up? Lol..
I have had my ups and downs, my moments of defeat and also my moments of climbing the ranks once again earning my triumph.. I have learned many things in life and I've lost many things in life, and I have replaced them with better things in life.. But ultimately this way of life provided me with the approach and Outlook that I have, whether it's being a field supervisor on construction, or just leading by example and other aspects.. whenever I see or hear a story about an underdog, I don't think anyone can appreciate it as much as I do.. when I hear an underdog talk about his or her story, I am mentally giving them a high-five and a chest bump.. the reality is everyone is an underdog at some degree, what defines us and separates us from the rest is making that clear conscious decision for self improvement, and that goes for anything in life!!

Bro you just hit home so hard when you brought up having tics. I had neurological tics all through my life even now I still have them. It's calmed down as I got older and the twitches are not as intense as they used to be. But man I had a twitch for every moving part on my body. Head shakes, head bobs, wrist bends, excessive blinking, shoulder shrugs, and others. My dad has a video of me playing tee ball when I was 7 or 8. It shows me getting a base hit and when I got to first base I just started tweaking. Like all of my twitches at once. His commentary was hilarious he was like "welp, there he goes. Doin his little nervous dance." Then it transitioned to "The power of Christ compels you!" haha. I still tweak out a bit when I'm stressed, nervous, or in deep concentration. My fiance will be next to me on the couch staring at me as I do my weird face and head twitches during an intense scene of a show.

Bro’s! That is crazy, I’ve always had tics myself. The same as you two they settled down a lot with age but there are times they effect me today.

We should call ourselves the triple tic threat!

[Jozifp103]

That is an absolutely fantastic story man and I actually visioned your entire journey as I was reading.. good stuff man..

For myself the journey long before I even touched any weights. I was also a skinny kid and I was picked on and bullied because of my stutter and a nervous tic. I ended up having behavior problems because of all of my frustrations that were bottled down. I ended up in a school for kids that had behavior problems and for myself during that time was very scary.. I was literally watching the worst of the worst fist fight with each other every day.. long as they were fighting each other and leaving me alone that was all I needed.. then it came time that I was getting picked on, after watching everyone else fist fight all the time I knew I had to throw down, or I was going to be taken advantage of for a long time.. not knowing what I was doing I threw down and I remember the first altercation very well. I was very surprised with how easily I pumbled this supposed badass kid. I was more surprised than everyone else that was watching. Then came the next kid not too long after, and I walked right through him.. how could this be?
There was a couple more instances thereafter and I held my own pretty good. not only did I earn the respect for my peers but I also stuck up for all of the other kids that got picked on . I actually hung out with a lot of the kids that we would call nerds, they were my best friends and they were pretty awesome kids, no one mess with anybody in our little click because of me.
With this new sense of pride I wanted to push it further and I remember looking in a magazine and I seen a weight bench, and I don't know what it was but something in me just wanted it..
That Christmas my mother bought me a weight set that was used from one of her friends.. I can't describe to you that feeling I had when I first laid my eyes on it until this day nothing in life as compared to it besides my children..
My mother's friend also passed down boxes and boxes of bodybuilding magazines from her older son.. I've never seen anything like it.. with my weight bench and these magazines I would just disappear into the tool shed for hours on end every night.. I can still smell the kerosene heater to this day.. I wanted nothing more then to be a monster. But my life was just starting and I had a lot of mistakes to make, and one of them was steroids at the age of 19.. it was foolish, however it turned into the best thing I ever did. I used off and on throughout my twenties ultimately staying on permanently at the latter years of my twenties.. I'm 42 today and I've never came off and almost 15 years.. if you met me, you would never think I had a tic or a stutter as a child.. these aren't things that just go away but you learn how to adapt to them. But I tell people they kind of laugh and Snicker and they don't believe me.. ok , whatever like I'm making it up? Lol..
I have had my ups and downs, my moments of defeat and also my moments of climbing the ranks once again earning my triumph.. I have learned many things in life and I've lost many things in life, and I have replaced them with better things in life.. But ultimately this way of life provided me with the approach and Outlook that I have, whether it's being a field supervisor on construction, or just leading by example and other aspects.. whenever I see or hear a story about an underdog, I don't think anyone can appreciate it as much as I do.. when I hear an underdog talk about his or her story, I am mentally giving them a high-five and a chest bump.. the reality is everyone is an underdog at some degree, what defines us and separates us from the rest is making that clear conscious decision for self improvement, and that goes for anything in life!!

Bro you just hit home so hard when you brought up having tics. I had neurological tics all through my life even now I still have them. It's calmed down as I got older and the twitches are not as intense as they used to be. But man I had a twitch for every moving part on my body. Head shakes, head bobs, wrist bends, excessive blinking, shoulder shrugs, and others. My dad has a video of me playing tee ball when I was 7 or 8. It shows me getting a base hit and when I got to first base I just started tweaking. Like all of my twitches at once. His commentary was hilarious he was like "welp, there he goes. Doin his little nervous dance." Then it transitioned to "The power of Christ compels you!" haha. I still tweak out a bit when I'm stressed, nervous, or in deep concentration. My fiance will be next to me on the couch staring at me as I do my weird face and head twitches during an intense scene of a show.

Bro’s! That is crazy, I’ve always had tics myself. The same as you two they settled down a lot with age but there are times they effect me today.

We should call ourselves the triple tic threat!

Hah! That's great. You're right bro, us twitchies gotta stick together!

[ckcrown84]

I am no different on/off cycle, however Tren factually makes me more irritable.

[Jozifp103]

I am no different on/off cycle, however Tren factually makes me more irritable.

Would you say you had any long-term changes in personality compared to before you ever used AAS?

[Vision]

That is an absolutely fantastic story man and I actually visioned your entire journey as I was reading.. good stuff man..

For myself the journey long before I even touched any weights. I was also a skinny kid and I was picked on and bullied because of my stutter and a nervous tic. I ended up having behavior problems because of all of my frustrations that were bottled down. I ended up in a school for kids that had behavior problems and for myself during that time was very scary.. I was literally watching the worst of the worst fist fight with each other every day.. long as they were fighting each other and leaving me alone that was all I needed.. then it came time that I was getting picked on, after watching everyone else fist fight all the time I knew I had to throw down, or I was going to be taken advantage of for a long time.. not knowing what I was doing I threw down and I remember the first altercation very well. I was very surprised with how easily I pumbled this supposed badass kid. I was more surprised than everyone else that was watching. Then came the next kid not too long after, and I walked right through him.. how could this be?
There was a couple more instances thereafter and I held my own pretty good. not only did I earn the respect for my peers but I also stuck up for all of the other kids that got picked on . I actually hung out with a lot of the kids that we would call nerds, they were my best friends and they were pretty awesome kids, no one mess with anybody in our little click because of me.
With this new sense of pride I wanted to push it further and I remember looking in a magazine and I seen a weight bench, and I don't know what it was but something in me just wanted it..
That Christmas my mother bought me a weight set that was used from one of her friends.. I can't describe to you that feeling I had when I first laid my eyes on it until this day nothing in life as compared to it besides my children..
My mother's friend also passed down boxes and boxes of bodybuilding magazines from her older son.. I've never seen anything like it.. with my weight bench and these magazines I would just disappear into the tool shed for hours on end every night.. I can still smell the kerosene heater to this day.. I wanted nothing more then to be a monster. But my life was just starting and I had a lot of mistakes to make, and one of them was steroids at the age of 19.. it was foolish, however it turned into the best thing I ever did. I used off and on throughout my twenties ultimately staying on permanently at the latter years of my twenties.. I'm 42 today and I've never came off and almost 15 years.. if you met me, you would never think I had a tic or a stutter as a child.. these aren't things that just go away but you learn how to adapt to them. But I tell people they kind of laugh and Snicker and they don't believe me.. ok , whatever like I'm making it up? Lol..
I have had my ups and downs, my moments of defeat and also my moments of climbing the ranks once again earning my triumph.. I have learned many things in life and I've lost many things in life, and I have replaced them with better things in life.. But ultimately this way of life provided me with the approach and Outlook that I have, whether it's being a field supervisor on construction, or just leading by example and other aspects.. whenever I see or hear a story about an underdog, I don't think anyone can appreciate it as much as I do.. when I hear an underdog talk about his or her story, I am mentally giving them a high-five and a chest bump.. the reality is everyone is an underdog at some degree, what defines us and separates us from the rest is making that clear conscious decision for self improvement, and that goes for anything in life!!

Bro you just hit home so hard when you brought up having tics. I had neurological tics all through my life even now I still have them. It's calmed down as I got older and the twitches are not as intense as they used to be. But man I had a twitch for every moving part on my body. Head shakes, head bobs, wrist bends, excessive blinking, shoulder shrugs, and others. My dad has a video of me playing tee ball when I was 7 or 8. It shows me getting a base hit and when I got to first base I just started tweaking. Like all of my twitches at once. His commentary was hilarious he was like "welp, there he goes. Doin his little nervous dance." Then it transitioned to "The power of Christ compels you!" haha. I still tweak out a bit when I'm stressed, nervous, or in deep concentration. My fiance will be next to me on the couch staring at me as I do my weird face and head twitches during an intense scene of a show.

Bro’s! That is crazy, I’ve always had tics myself. The same as you two they settled down a lot with age but there are times they effect me today.

We should call ourselves the triple tic threat!

This made me laugh out loud... Triple tic threat! frick'n brilliant...

[Vision]

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Bro you just hit home so hard when you brought up having tics. I had neurological tics all through my life even now I still have them. It's calmed down as I got older and the twitches are not as intense as they used to be. But man I had a twitch for every moving part on my body. Head shakes, head bobs, wrist bends, excessive blinking, shoulder shrugs, and others. My dad has a video of me playing tee ball when I was 7 or 8. It shows me getting a base hit and when I got to first base I just started tweaking. Like all of my twitches at once. His commentary was hilarious he was like "welp, there he goes. Doin his little nervous dance." Then it transitioned to "The power of Christ compels you!" haha. I still tweak out a bit when I'm stressed, nervous, or in deep concentration. My fiance will be next to me on the couch staring at me as I do my weird face and head twitches during an intense scene of a show.
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Bro, I have so many memories that are very similar.. I have family videos of us on the beach and there I am in the back just going to town in my own little world haha..
My son has really bad vocal tics and full body tics with a stutter, I feel awful for him because he is such a loving old soul, he is such a sweet, loving human being.. I know how people can be and I hurt for him that people look at him, he knows it too..

People would always ask my my I was so heavily tattooed, I tell the people I know best that it's like body armor for me. Getting my swole on with ink over the past 20 years has been my savior.. Im like iron man in my own mind.. My son thinks Im pretty cool so that's all that matters